First off and really quickly – this week I met my cohort, started classes, started work, and started research for my mentor. Everyone was very nice to me which was all I could hope for! I’m so grateful to be working and studying in such a friendly place.
Between the start of work and classes, there was a lot of social activity in the past week and by Friday night, my nerves were pretty shot. Curling up on the couch with a bag of tortilla chips and some Hulu was all I could manage. Pathetique!
I had some lingering self-discrepencies the next morning, and I’ve been slowly working through them over the long weekend. I was feeling anxious about my capabilities and my intellect I wasn’t sure why. I felt naive and infantile.
I think, that in the midst of the introductions and explanations and questions I forgot about who I am and what I have to offer. I am only 24 and I am new to Austin and I am new to graduate school, but I’m not new to life. I have experience in some things and because of that I believe that I have some wisdom and goodness to offer.
This is how I am choosing to reframe my view of myself next week. Thank you blog for allowing me to reflect and work things out. I am looking forward to tomorrow!
Prolong not the past
Invite not the future
Alter not your innate wakefulness
Fear not appearances
There is nothing more than that
- Tibetan stanza
Jam of the day: The National “Don’t Swallow the Cap”